Two months later and the job search continues.
I actually fell asleep while filling out an application today. It’s that bad.
I need a job. And not the way most American’s need a job. I need a job the way a crack fiend needs to sell stolen copper pipes to support his habit.
Like Donald Trump needs to invest in a barber.
Like Michelle Obama needs to run for president.
Okay. I’m done.
In all seriousness – I desperately need money, and not just because I like the way it smells. We make money to spend money. I need a paycheck so that I can *know* that my portion of rent will be covered. That my half of groceries and utilities will be paid.
I need to know that I can go back to school and not have to take out $12,000 in loans to cover tuition, fees, books and room and board. Besides, isn’t that how we got into this mess in the first place? Borrowing and borrowing because we could?
I know that there are millions of other American’s out there that are in my position. Waking up and dragging their lumpy asses to their computers to sit and stare at indeed/careerbuilder/jobs/snagajob/monster.com and send out resume after resume. I know I’m not the only one out there with 8 different resumes and 25 different cover letters on her hard drive.
There are countless others that get up and walk around, searching for “we’re hiring” signs, and walking into business after business requesting to speak to managers.
I know I’m not the only one that watches the employed thinking, “I could do that way better than her. Why does she have a job and not me?”
It really crumbs my toast.
I hope and I pray and I prope because that’s all I can do.
And I try not to worry too much about where I’ll be in two more months. It’s so damned hard though. I don’t want to regret going back to school because of a swirling eddy of debt.
I don’t want to regret not going back to school because I was too afraid to accrue said debt.
Ack. Back to job hunting I go.